A Day at the Beach

Around this time last year, I was fortunate enough to meet some long time Second Life friends in the real world. It was an amazing weekend and over far too quickly and if I remember correctly, I think I even stayed a day longer than I originally planned. Mind you, Nikole kept my ass stoned from the time I got there until I left. Along with partaking in some pretty fine ass weed, Blondie’s RL took us all to a Japanese Steak house for dinner, where not only did Nik eat my yumyum (a really delicious sauce), but we found our official drink for the weekend. It was called A Day at the Beach and looks very much like the sky behind me. We had a grand weekend with that drink, by the pool…oh the stories and jokes…and the sunburn!
I’m so glad I can enjoy all the beaches and pools in SL without having to worry about getting a sunburn. Even with especially high SPF sunscreen, my RL self will still burn if I’m in the sun for more than an hour.

wearing:
hair:  tram G0511 hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

L&B Swear Lilly Wrap Top (*new* @ Uber)
!Rebel Hope – Mesh Sarong

pose by Foxcity

location: Banana Bay

Holiday Weekend!

Whether you live in the U.S. and observe Memorial Day (not really a celebratory event) or in the UK where they have a bank holiday (that no one seems to know the reason for) or maybe you live somewhere else with a holiday today….for most people its been a three day weekend. In the US, regardless of the reason, a three day weekend usually means a cookout! It means a day outside, unless you live where I do at the moment….and here it simply means rain. Fortunately for me, I discovered (thanks to Facebook) a very cool new-ish weather app called WTForecast! This makes me laugh to no end and I’m sure my FB friends are quite tired of seeing me share my weather posts, but they are FUNNY! Okay, clearly I’m off track…*takes a minute to read back*….oh yeah, I was going to write about the different holidays. Nothing to really say about the bank holiday, cuz the only thing I can find about it is some jibberish about bank holidays in general, not an actual reason for this one in particular. Memorial Day, however, really should be considered a more somber occasion as its a day to recognize those that died while serving their country. But in the U.S. we are soooo commercialized its usually more like a day for sales and cookouts! Its a patriotic holiday at best, so I’ve donned some red, white, and blue….because like most Americans *hangs her head* I wasn’t thinking about what the holiday actually is, just that it was a three day weekend and what usually happens on three day weekends.
On that note, I am grateful for all the people that have served my country and my heart goes out to all the families of those lost to battles on our behalf. It is because of them that selfish little people like myself can forget the true nature of the day and enjoy the freedoms that their service affords me. Thank you.

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH / Imani (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Appliers HUD [Tender Garden]

**RE** Simone Heart Collar
!Rebel Hope – Brinkly Mesh Bikini Top
L&B Swear Dita Denim Shorts (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

location: Luane’s Romantic Sim (beach side)

Boop this nose, Sassy!

Last September, I did a droog look that I absolutely loved in an ironic post called, World Peace. So clearly, this is not the first time I’ve done a post that refers to one of my favorite movies, Clockwork Orange, but sometimes things just fall together in such a way that I cannot resist. This picture is one of those things. First ChicModa releases a retexture of the Kat dress that was originally released in the April BishBox with a boop graphics. I knew I had to blog it, because Sassy Nitely is the queen of booping. Then my dear friend, Kess Crystal, gave me an extra hair that she nabbed from a lock&tuft gacha and passed it to me saying, “cos nothing says Sady more than Clockwork Orange hat hair!” I love that she remembered how much I love that movie. Naturally, between the hair and the dress…and now, of course, the movie…I couldn’t help but think of the masks they wore in one particularly uncomfortable scene of the movie. I, also, couldn’t help but think of my friend, Rom, because he has such a mask. So, off to marketplace I went, because if I’m going to blog a boop dress with droog hair, I need the ultimate dick nose mask, Boop this nose, Sassy! *laughs* She’s going to kill me!
Alright, so once again, you’ve had a peek into my twisted little head and how things often unfold. *giggles* You all know by now that I’ve got a good heart, but a very mischievous side, as well. So, surely this is not surprise to any of you…not really.

wearing:
hair:  lock&tuft – droog – variety UNCOMMON (*new* @ SaNaRae)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
mask: : Lewd :  Alex Maskie
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

ChicModa // Kat T-Shirt Dress
=Zenith=Cosy long Gloves
*MUKA* Garter Socks
[VALE KOER] TACTICAL FLIP BOOTS

pose by Del May
MINIMAL – Underground Background -2- (*new* @ Uber)

 

XOXO

As I sit here this beautiful Saturday morning, smoking my cigarette and drinking my coffee, I can’t help but think about how blessed I am. I had a fantastic conversation with a new friend about the power of choosing to be positive. We talked about how there’s far too much hate and how there can never be too much love. So, in keeping with that I’m going to keep this short and wish you all an absolutely beautiful, positive, love filled weekend. XOXO

wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Twobi (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

Vinyl – Scars Turtleneck/Bra Pak (FLF May 27, 2017)
Vinyl – Florence Skirt
Phedora ~ Danielle Strappy heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Foxcity (includes cigarette)
MINIMAL – Underground Background -4- (*new* @ Uber)

Turn Your Back On It

I see a lot of threads on Facebook about people getting mad at each other for commenting on shady comments directed at them, while the person commenting had no idea who it was about and didn’t care. As I’m not sure that reads correctly, lets put some fake names on it, using the alphabet, okay?

A makes a shady status update on Facebook about Z. B makes a comment on said shady status having no idea who the original comment was about. Z sees it, knows that A is talking about them and now wonders if B has a problem with them, as well. Now B has hurt feelings and is confused. In the confusion, B sends a message to Z asking what’s up? Z clearly has no idea what B is talking about and now they have beef, too. So, essentially whatever bond B and Z might have had…well, its damaged over something that had nothing to do with Z in the first place.

Here’s another example, albeit extreme, it does happen. Y makes a shady status update about X. Now D comes along this status on their feed and makes a comment. X is downright pissed off and unfriends D. Until now, D was clueless about the true drama, but after the tantrum that X throws by unfriending D…well, D isn’t all that bothered, but is now amused enough to share the experience elsewhere on Facebook.
Do you see where this is going?

I actually have my own little story that coincides with this. About 2 1/2 years ago, I went through a really nasty break up and the ex was ranting all over Facebook in her ever true to narcissistic fashion via passive aggressive status updates….all aimed at me, of course, but oddly enough hidden from me, as well. We can’t allow the subject of our passive aggressive posts to defend themselves, now can we? *laughs* Okay, so we all know how this goes, right? You might hide the status from the intended subject, but you have common “friends” and someone always likes to stir the pot by running and telling everything they see. And so it was one fateful night that I sat around with some new and old friends playing some Cards Against Humanity. I get a random IM from someone that had not spoken to me in month,s showing me exactly what was said by the EX and all the people that commented on it. Two of the people that commented knew exactly who it was about and yes, I unfriended them. However, there was one comment made by someone sitting at the very table I was playing the game with me. As her SL name differed slightly from her FB name, I asked her who she was on Facebook. She confirmed that she was the person in question. So, I advised her rather quickly and a bit curtly that I was not “emotionally stunted” as she had commented on my ex’s post. I could tell by her embarrassment and apology that she truly had no idea that the ex was speaking of me, as she barely knew either of us and had only seen us around and not really together when she did. Mind you, in addition to her apology she deleted her comment immediately and is now one of my absolute best friends. We’ve never even come close to having a disagreement since that night. We were kinda lucky in the sense that we were able to sort it out right away and move forward.
However, as you can imagine, there are a lot of ways this can go down. Most of them only end in hurt feelings, lost friendships, and missed opportunities. So…the moral of this post is that if you don’t know what/who the shady status is about…then its best to keep on scrolling. Now, if you do know and wanna throw shade…knock yourselves out, but just remember, you’re feeding the drama llama…so don’t go running to your profile with that “I don’t do drama” bullshit cuz you clearly do. So, if you really want to avoid the drama, scroll on past the stuff that doesn’t concern you and turn your back on unnecessary drama. *nods and steps off her soap box*

wearing:
hair:  Beusy: Jaclyn Hairstyle (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

BUENO-Swimsuit-Mat-Aqua (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Di’s Opera

locatioin: The Trace Too

Bad Girl

Yeah, its a lyrics kinda post…make what you want of it. *smirks* I’ve been talking on some pretty deep subjects the last few days…so today…you get a song that gives you a peek into another side of me. *grins* Some of you might even already know this side of me. Somehow I doubt it will surprise anyone that doesn’t. So, enjoy and grab yourself some devious accessories…get out there and be BAD! <eg>

Bad Girl – Avril Lavigne (Suicide Squad) ft. Marilyn Manson

Just lay your head in daddy’s lap, you’re a bad girl

Bad girl (1-2-3-4)

Hey, hey
I’ll let you walk all over me, me
You know that I’m a little tease, tease
But I wanna play there please, please

You know you know you know I’m crazy
I just wanna be your baby
You can fuck me, you can play me
You can love and you can hate me

Miss me, miss me, now you wanna kiss me

[Chorus]
Choke me because I said so
Stroke me and feed my ego
I’ve been a bad girl, don’t you know?
(Don’t tell me what to do)
Come get it now or never
I’ll let you do whatever
I’ll be your bad girl, here we go
(1-2-3-4)

Miss me, miss me, now you wanna kiss me

(You’re a bad girl)

Baby,
You know I want a little taste, taste
So let me take you all the way, way
You know you’ll never be the same, same

(You fuckin’ bad girl!)

One night
You won’t forget the rest of your life
So come on over to the wild side
Buckle up and, baby, hold on tight

Miss me, miss me, now you wanna kiss me
We both know that you love me ’cause I’m so bad!

[Chorus]
Choke me because I said so
Stroke me and feed my ego
I’ve been a bad girl, don’t you know?
(Don’t tell me what to do)
Come get it now or never
I’ll let you do whatever
I’ll be your bad girl, here we go
(1-2-3-4)

I’ve been a bad girl [7x]
I’ve got your bad girl

[Chorus]
Choke me because I said so
Stroke me and feed my ego
I’ve been a bad girl, don’t you know?
(Don’t tell me what to do)
Come get it now or never
I’ll let you do whatever
I’ll be your bad girl, here we go
(1-2-3-4)

Bad bad bad girl
(lyrics grabbed from AZLYRICS)

wearing:
hair:  Magika – A Perfect Mess (w/ headband)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
piercing: .:E.A.Studio:. Piercing Armor Rokaba Nose Woman
necklace: Pretty Mess – Knotted Choker SILVER (*new* @ N21)

Haunted Hallway

I was talking about the different types of abuse I endured as a kid the other day. It wasn’t really one of those emo conversations, but more about which types of abuse seem to have left the deepest scars. For me personally, it was the physical or sexual abuse. It was the verbal, emotion, and mental abuse. There was a hallway in my house that had two doors on either side and to this day I have nightmares about that hallway. Why? Because it was there that I was scarred the most. Passing my father in the hallway only to hear him mutter insults repeatedly throughout every single day. This went on long after the physical and sexual abuse ended. In fact, it got worse. I think we all know too well how insults and negative statements tend to linger…to weigh heavier than the positive. I wish I could change that. I wish I could believe the good things people say as much, if not more, than the bad.
Perhaps if we are kinder to one another, more complimentary towards one another…we can avoid haunted hallways and instead step out into the sun. May we embrace the rays of positive words and leave the negative remarks…the hate…the abuse…behind us…in the dark.

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Indy
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

LYBRA . VIVIEN TAUPE (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

pose by Di’s Opera

backdrop: /anxiety/ local (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

All Monsters May Be Human

I was talking to a dear friend last night about a video where humans were cuddling and kissing wild animals, like alligators, bears, and big cats. We talked about how crazy they were, but then I said, “Ya know, I think I have about as much trust in wild animals as I do in humans these days.” Of course, in the wake of what’s happened in Manchester, its certainly disheartening to think, that we as humans would create such misery for one another.  Not just on the grand scale of terrorism either, but it got me to thinking about this documentary series I’ve been watching on Netflix about this priest that molested hundreds of children that trusted him and turned to him for help. Which led me to think about all the horrible things that humans do to other humans. At least when I’m face to face with a wild animal, I know there’s a risk of him eating my face or ripping my limbs from my body. Then there are the humans that we love and/or trust…parents, family members, friends, lovers, authorities…we put our faith in them and open our hearts. When they betray us that broken trust is devastating.
We used to tell our children to trust police officers and clergy members, but I can’t help but wonder how many people would tell their children that now? I know I certainly wouldn’t. I’m not even sure I could suggest that they trust anyone but me. Luckily I do not have children, for I’m sure I’d pass my jaded mistrust on to them and it would only make life more difficult.  I don’t recommend that people go about not trusting anyone and I do try very hard to remain positive. After-all, in the aftermath of the Manchester bombing, there were a lot of people that offered help to those affected…whether they were emergency workers, injured, or simply unable to get home. Again, its those people that remind me that while all monsters may be human, so are the truest angels.

wearing:
hair:  *ARGRACE* TSUMUGI
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

Tee*fy Jenna Tube  Top (Luxe Box May)
ChicModa // Aly Skirt ( BishBox May)
#EMPIRE – Chrysanthemum (Luxe Box May)

pose by Bauhaus Movement edited with AnyPose

props:
Jaguar Prowling – Mesh – Full Perm by Just Animals
Jaguar Standing – Mesh – Full Perm by Just Animals

location: Whole Wheat

A Broken Phone Booth

“Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do as prophets say?
And if I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?”
Primitive Radio Gods – Standing Outside A Broken Phone Booth With Money In My Hand

This is one of those songs that I’ve probably heard at least 100 times. I liked it a lot. The chorus is quite catchy with the lyrics like:
“I’ve been downhearted baby,
I’ve been downhearted baby,
Ever since the day we met”

and the “Do do do do do do”

However, it wasn’t until I looked up the actual lyrics that I was truly moved by the poetry of it. The melody is certainly hypnotic, but now I think its going to be one of my favorite songs all because I took the time to really read the lyrics in a stand alone manner, like poetry. Which, of course, is something I can truly appreciate as I used to write quite a bit of poetry and on occasion, I still do. I even have another blog for my poetry, that I’ve sadly neglected for a very long time.
I was talking to Josh about writing last night and of course, he’s very supportive and encouraging, but I simply don’t have the drive I once did for such things. My own poetic words have abandoned me, but alas I’m still full of cra…erhm…I mean plenty of random musings like this one.

Anyway, I’d like to wrap up this post with a moment of silence as I send positive thoughts, love & healing light to all of those in Manchester…what happened last night was an immense tragedy and while it breaks my heart that this has happened at all. The way the English people came together to assist one another somehow manages to restore just a little of my faith in humanity and the strength of communities.

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Scout
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

Pretty Mess – Active Top RED (*new* @ N21)
Pretty Mess – Active Bottoms RED Daddys (*new* @ N21)
{Luxuria} Fall/Winter 16 Thigh High Socks
#EMPIRE – Ixora (*new* @ N21)

pose by Del May

scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Steel Plate
.UNTITLED. (grounded) mohksy uk phone booth
[ keke ] hogweed shimmer mini
[ keke ] hogweed shimmer maxi

Unlike Any Other

I was thinking about the mushy post I wrote the other day and how I said his love is unlike any I’ve ever known. I got to thinking about how often people say that about current relationships. I thought about how overused the phrase is and quite honestly, I got annoyed with myself for using the phrase so much, as well. Then I started thinking about it, really thinking about it. Each love is and should be like any other, shouldn’t it?
Think about it, every relationship you’ve been in had to be wonderful at some point and had to have seemed unlike any other…at least for a while, right? I mean why be with someone if it doesn’t feel wonderful, right? Even the relationships that are over and ended badly, before the end…before everything went to shit, something was good. That relationship was special. I suppose this is how things become cliche’ in the first place…they ring true and are applicable repeatedly.
Well, it was just something I was thinking about a lot lately. As I am crazy about Josh and he truly is like anyone I’ve ever known before, but then again so are all my exes. *laughs* Thank goodness for that! How daft would it be if they were all the same, afterall!?!? Yeah, ok, there’s a picture and pretty stuff…shutting up now. *wanders off to chase squirrels*

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Taja
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: RedFish  – Pholy Tattoo (*new* @ Lost & Found)

**RE** Bad Kitty Collar 1.1
ChicModa // Carol Top (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
SPIRIT – Mil pants
fri. – Koko Wraps (*new* @ N21)

pose by Del May

scene:
uK – DJ Dead Chair Grey
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA YES YOU